Emotional much?

I am officially an emotional wreck. It's hard to write but I feel like I need to acknowledge it all by putting it out there,kinda like the beginnings of the twelve step program or something. So most of you know that this is not our first pregnancy. The last one left me with a lot if insecurities which showed up a little early on but really haven't been around much lately ... Until yesterday. Now I'm a total wreck. I'm constantly worried that something might be wrong and I don't know it and it will all be a loss like last time all because I don't really know what I am doing. Is he moving enough? How much is enough? Now I'm having nightmares about going to a highschool volleyball game but having to stop by the student store to buy tampons and a pregnancy test to confirm what I fear is the loss of thus baby before I have to call everyone to deliver the bad news.
I think I am just so close to this one being real that I'm scared to loose it all again. Sigh. On ward.